Strange happenings

Eric gave me a teddy bear for our first Valentine's Day together 5 years ago. Every night I sleep hugging this teddy bear. My new thing however is that at least once a night I wake up gasping thinking that the teddy bear is the baby and I'm smothering him. The first time it happened Eric was witness to it and laughed at me. Now I just keep it to myself that this keeps happening! Oh boy...